Well, it's no surprise this post will include fodder about the ex, just like most posts here. Of course he always gives me lots to talk about... But today - he got in a spar with a semi truck on his motorcycle. I knew it was coming. It was just a matter of when.
He's in his own world. It's sad really. He is fully convinced that everything is everyone else's fault - no matter what it is. It's clear by the look of his motorcycle that he hit that semi, not the other way around. Semi would have taken out the back end. It was the entire front end that was trashed. But of course it was "the other guy's fault."
He still believes that he is taking his meds (although proven wrong repeatedly), that he does what's best for Emily *by exposing her to her insane grandmother who has tormented the other grand kid, to the point there were restraining orders that she constantly violated, and court cases. Yeah, that's what's best for Em. But really, when Em's with him, I can't do much about it. When he's got her, he can pretty much take her where he wants, when he wants, and with whom he wants. He doesn't care that it's what's best for her. He cares that he CAN do it just because I don't want him to. (No matter what you say or do, he's going to do what he wants to, etc... That's just how he is.) Luckily Kasia's too smart to fall for "grandma's" bullshit.
It's going to get ugly at some point, and he says he's tired of my threats, but I have done nothing more than tell him what Family Court will do - appoint law guardians to each kid, do psychological testing on everyone involved, and make determinations about what is best for each of the kids.
There's lots more to tell, but that's it for now. I don't have internet at home, and I'd much rather spend time snuggling Tim and hanging out with the kids as a family. I just use this space (like most bloggers do) as a space to vent. There's only so much I can take before I just stand back and shake my head...
I'm sort of to that point right now.
Mike's now $970 in arrears for support. He's been out on disability (temporary) due to anxiety and panic attacks that aren't responding to meds (because he doesn't freaking take them!!). He has been out since September 1st (or thereabouts). I really wish there were some way I could tip off his psych. Is it unrealistic to think if I wrote her a certified letter she'd actually read it and listen? I just want him to get his crap straightened out...if even for Em's sake. Kasia has decided that she just can't deal with any more hurt - physical or emotional - from him. I can't say I blame her.
*continuing to shake my head*
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